Dear Mom,
There
were many times that you criticized me for standing in front of the mirror for
over 10 minutes;
There
were many times that you dragged me up from comfortable bed in the very early
mornings during summer vacations, claiming that “don’t waste your time!”
There
were many times that you forced me to eat the food I didn’t enjoy such as
jujube, onion and yellow bean;
There
were endless nights that you accompanied with me for practicing piano when my
friends were watching animations, even when I told you I wanted to give up;
There
were many times that I felt you paid too much attention to details especially
when I talked about some guys at school;
There
were many times that I felt you talked too much and you didn’t understand what
I was thinking;
However –
Because
of you, I am a morning person now and enjoy every bit of sunshine;
Because
of you, I continued playing piano and cultivated a mindset for appreciating
every detail of beauty in my life;
Because of
you, I love jujube, onion and yellow bean and realized later that those are
very healthy food;
I understand
you now because I can almost see a talkative and super detail-oriented me when I
become a mother.
I know
if every time I could have said “Sorry Mom” you would immediately stop
criticizing me, but that strong personality never allowed me to say this - what
a stupid girl.
I never
saw you cry until I was boarding on the plane to college, to Hong Kong and to
US.
You are
very strict on buying things to me (cosmetic products, clothes etc.) but you
never cared about spending $30 on a 45 minutes piano class;
You have
a Walmart VIP card that you could have bought many things for yourself but you
only used it when I went back to hometown;
I have
promised many times that I wanted to travel with you in Europe but I always
don’t have time – internship, job search, projects, assignment…… I talked to
you every night when I just came to US and now the frequency has reduced to 2
times a week – internship, job search, projects, assignments…..And I never think
about if I stay in US and I went back to China once a year, how many more days
I can spend with you.
In this
special festival, I can only book boutiques online to send my wishes for you.
And I know that’s not the return what you are expecting from me – a phone call
and some more pictures will be super enough.
All I
want to do is to be a better me and make you a proud mother – Happy Mothers’
Day dear Mom.
Love,
Lingling
Beautifully said, Lingling. Mama raised a fine daughter.
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